Did you ever google someone from your past just to see if you can find them? And when did “google” become a verb? Anyway, every so often I try to see if I can find anything on Former Friend. I don’t know why, I just do. Well, I found her-address and phone number and all (thank you 411.com) So what do I do with this information? If I call her and she asks how I got her number do I explain that I found her on the internet because I do the occasional searches and try to do it without sounding like a stalker? She only lives about a half hour away which isn’t that much around here. Again, how do I make contact without sounding like a creep? But I guess the bigger question is “why?” Is it just to be vindictive? To show her that my life has turned out to be far better than I had expected and that I know a big part of hers hit the shitter? And then what? With work, the kids, Hubs, my house…I haven’t even had time to nurture the one and only friendship I really want. We haven’t had time for a stitch and bitch or pedi since her birthday. I miss that, but we have both been so busy that we can’t even find the time for one evening after work. What a piss poor excuse. So now I want to add someone else to the mix? Back to someone I know has screwed me in such a way that I don’t think we could ever go back to what we once had? Why do I do this to myself? Maybe I want to finally lay some ghosts to rest. Or maybe I finally want the last word. I want to get that one last “Fuck you” out of my system.